Belated

It feels like forever since I've had a moment to sit down and breathe for long enough to collect my thoughts and write more then a word or two about Cam's world over the past few weeks.

In a few short weeks there has been a lot of going on here in Crazytown. Cam went on his first ever beach vacation, cut another tooth, celebrated his first birthday, learned to pull himself up to a stand, and made his first visit to a zoo. Not to mention the fact that he perfected the stinkface, the snort, the fast paced and breakneck speed crawl, and the shrillest of shrill shrieks. He has been quite a busy boy.

To me, this all adds up to the fact that I am now the proud mama of toddler. First time I have said those words-mama to a toddler. It is still sinking in...

Since we were at the beach with the family for Cam's first birthday I didn't get all crazy and teary and dwell on the fact that my baby is growing up at the speed of light right before my very eyes. Nope, didn't do it. Thought I would, but we were distracted by the beach and the sun and aforementioned toddler cutting a tooth... And in place of the tears I thought I would shed over the end of my boy's infancy here's what I found. A heart filled to the top with love every time Cam laid his head on my shoulder, threw his arms around me and hugged me tight. A surge of pride as I watched him play in the sand with his uncles and stare at the ocean for the very first time from the safety of his daddy's arms. An enormous smile as he pointed to a party decoration for the very first time on his own after weeks of me bending his little fingers together and showing him how its done.

I thought I would spend hours working to write an all important birthday post saying just the right things about the first year of Cam's life and all that had happened and all the things that I would miss about my baby. Instead, one week later as I finally find the time to sit down and write that all important post, I think about the fact that I've spent the past six months regaling his triumphs daily right here on these very blog pages and find that my heart is not filled with tears for the end of Cam's babyhood. What I found in place of the sadness I had anticipated is joy. The joy it is to be the mama of a toddler.